Sweet 16? Bullshit.

Exams and exams. So much for sweet 16.

Hi people, I'm back! Prelims haven't ended, but i guess i deserve a break right now (: 

Prelim papers are quite challenging. I guess, this is the only exam which impacts most of us. It's the exam which wakes us up, and let us finally understand that this is r-e-a-l-i-t-y. It's less than a month to O levels. But i feel so drained of energy already. How will i be able to persevere until the end of Os? Goshhhhh. No point complaining. Still got to do my best. 

Talking about prelims, surprisingly, amaths didn't drain me of my energy. It was emaths which drained my energy instead. Weird. Hmm, english was tough. People say first question of compre is the must-get-mark question, the question that gives you a boost of confidence. But the first question stunned and demoralized me :( Ahh. I'll fail english this time round, because my paper 1 is like shit too ._.

Science this time was alright. Manageable, but more challenging than usual. Please, give me my A1 :( 

Really got no life recently. My life has been revolving around books and cards. Lol. 

Seriously, I can't wait for Os to end. I've so much to do :( Dramas, kbox, shopping, blah. 3 MORE WEEKS. 

I took the cab to school today.

*points up* Yes, first time me having to pay to go school! Omg. I think it's damn not worth it at all -.-

Alright, i won't be blogging so often anymore. Prelims next week, I shall force myself to study. I hope I don't tire myself out. Off to do work.

I'll be back, after prelim ends :)

HIATUS.

First day of school.

Hi readers.

I didn't have the time to blog yesterday, sorry! I shall blog about everything today. First day of school today, it was T-I-R-I-N-G. That's all i could say. I'm happy to see friends once again, but some sights still hurt as much as before. The one week holiday didn't help. :( Whatever, I shall concentrate on studies now. Came home without having lunch straight after school for tuition but tutor actually forgotten about tuition -.- Nevermind, shall do my own revision later.

Anw, Sofia got me a keychain as a souvenir from vietnam. Thank you sofia! Now, all 4 of us have each a keychain with our names on it and the super cute bee! Sofia, i love the gift! ^^ She got me chewing gum to chew too, good mouth exercise. Hahaha.

Got back amaths paper 2 today. Mrs see is slow. 50/100. Just nice, yay. Though it's not good, I'm satisfied. Because I think I didn't put in my best effort for this paper, and a pass is enough for me. I thought I would fail actually. Plus, I'm not exactly sure about differentiation and integration before the paper. Now I think I can understand the chapters more because of the 5 amaths papers done during the holiday, I hope to do well for prelims, then Os :)

Today i was trying out tarot reading using my phone. & there was one part that stated ' The conjunction of the card of Death and the Star often indicates an emotional crisis, and it goes without saying that this could be making you feel very downbeat today. ' It's stupid to rely on horoscope to live, but i kind of believe in it, because every single time i read it, it's relevant to my life. & today's no exception. 

Yesterday, I went studying at 139 again with Nicole. I met her a total of 4 times during sept holiday! & this morning i saw her again because I was early and she was late, hahaha. Fate ^^ I guess I'll meeting her again soon! I love studying with this girl of mine, because she's really awesomeeeeeeee. :)

We were bored hahaha.

I need my bed badly. I'll blog tomorrow!

Bend, don't break.

Another random day today. Out with nicole to study in the morning from 10 to around 430. Can you believe it, i actually bothered to set my alarm and wake up early just to study. STUDY. Yes, study. I didn't do many questions, but i really sat down and worked on those questions that I'll just skip when I'm practicing at home alright. & I realised, I can do those questions. Why did i even skip them when i'm at home. Lol.

I'm really tired now. But I'm waiting for my sister to come home. She'll probably reach home @ about 12 plus 1. I'm such a nice sister, haha. Meeting those girls at tmart tomorrow and nicole on sunday again. :) & I think.. I won't be able to finish my homework. I guess I've been focusing on amaths so much that i actually forgot about the rest. For example, english. & I haven't took out time to really write a compo :( Nooooooo, I hope I'll be able to do one soon, and pass english for both prelim and O level.

The thought of O levels approaching less than 50 days scare me. Really, if we calculate the amount of time given to study each subject, it isn't sufficient at all. It was 100 days, then 70 days. Now, less than 50 days. Time flies, & I know that I've to buck up. But I'm not doing anything. I'm still the same, stoning. Ahh. When can i really wake up.

' I want to be remembered as the one who always smiles even when her heart is broken, and the one who would always brighten up your day even when she couldn't brighten up her own. '

The beautiful thing about memories is that they are yours.

I've been thinking a lot lately. I didn't want to think. But memories just naturally came to my mind when i was using tumblr, reading quotes. It's amazing, isn't it? There isn't any names mentioned but naturally people surface your mind as you read quotes. Well, life goes on. I shall be realistic and brave enough to prove to you that i'm equally happy without you.

Rotted at home for the whole day today. Tuition from 1230 to 2. At least tutor is awake today, because he's flying to vietnam straight away after tuition today. So.. learnt quite a lot, yayness. I feel a little hope for my amaths. In the meantime.. i forgot everything about science :( Ahh, sucks to be me.

I tried to do work in the afternoon. About half and hour passed, can't resist but to walk around the house searching for food. Found chips, stayed on the sofa for one hour or so watching tv. Then sat to do work for 15 mins. Cannot tahan the boredom, so i went to lie on my bed with music! Then after that i woke up again and forced myself to do some work. But soon it was 7, which meant dinner time. Then.. i watched tv all the way till 10, and came online. LOL. The point is, i can't study at home.

Supposed to meet jocelyn tomorrow to study. But she can't make it last minute, so i'm meeting nicole again tomorrow! Talking to this girl now in msn. She's stupid yet cute, hehehe. :) Alright, i shall keep her company now before she kills me. Byebye to whoever reading this ^^

' I guess i just have to accept that you aren't the person i once knew. And that we don't have the same friendship we once shared. '

Back from studying with nicole. I'm so tired now. Quite a productive day, i've finished 2 amaths papers! Good accomplishment for me. Got to work hard for the rest of the days. I actually don't blame teachers giving homework, because it gives me more motivation to study. When i finish one paper, i feel so awesome. :)

Next date with nicole, saturday :) I'm going to meet her for 3 times this september holiday hahaha.

Hmm, it seems that tired is always being associated with sadness. When i'm tired, naturally all the negative things come to my mind. What's wrong with me. I've already said i don't care. But deep down, i know i still do. It's getting on my nerves, urgh. Whatever, going to bed soon, gonna sleep away my troubles. Byebye.

There are a million little strings attached to every choice you make.

I'm back from tmart. I think i'm not that productive today :( Stayed there all the way from 2 till 9. Played cards half the time, lol. I hope tomorrow's studying with nicole will be okay. Nicole, my future is in your hands! HAHAHA. I shall clarify all my doubts for amaths with her tomorrow. :) Speaking of this, I'm so excited to meet her tomorrow, hehehehe.

P.S/ Meeting Jocelyn on friday! ^^
P.SS/ I miss fiona and sofia ttm :(
P.SSS/ I have 103 views for this blog today but only 26 uniques. ( How many stalkers are there, LOL. )

Silence is a girl's loudest cry.

Hi earthlings.

Yesyesyes, i met up with nicole today. One word, awesome :) It was just a simple lunch, a few hours spent talking & taking photos, but i enjoyed every single second i spent with her. Once again, thanks so much girl, for your listening ear and understanding. I love you very much! ♥ 


Haha, we met at around 11 at my block, and headed to ehub for lunch at fish&co. Then slacked till around 2 plus, then headed over to her house :) I miss everything there man. Hahahaha. Webcammed with her friend and i made a new friend today! Hahah, thanks to my friendliness. Feel so proud of myself, tsk. Our next date will be on wednesday, studyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! :)


Alright, photos time :)

Last 4 photos were taken the previous time i met her ♥

We’ve become strangers, but we’re strangers with a past.

I'll change blogskin soon. Make do with this for now. :)

Awesome day spent with Nicole today. Will update more tonight. ♥

JJ is a genius! 

YAY I'M MEETING NICOLE TOMORROW. :D

I managed to catch up with JJ yesterday :) Looking back at his videos and all, there's a sudden strong feeling in me. I feel motivated suddenly, my mood becomes better. I have no idea why is this so, let's just call it JJ's power. Haha.

I made a promise to myself to study today. I started off with amaths. Then i got bored, and moved on to emaths. Then i got bored, and i stopped studying. At night about 7, i wanted to continue studying, then my relatives came unexpectedly. & after they left i came online! So.. study plan failed :(

There's so much work to do, so much to catch up. I still thought of reading TKAM for lit, because i know i wont have time when school starts. But i already said this since june holidays. I have my study table to tidy too. There's so many things on it that i dont even have space to study. I need to revise and relearn my amaths too. I was slacking throughout mrs see's lessons, and haven't tried a single plane geometry sum, so yeah. Gosh i need to really push myself!

I'm really feeling the stress. As time passes, the feeling just gets stronger and stronger, but i'm doing nothing. I'm still the same, doing my things in my own world everyday. I know it isn't appropriate, but i just can't seem to do it right. I guess i will really wake up to my senses after i get my prelim results.

Oh yeah anyway, i'm really excited because i'm meeting nicole on wednesday! It's gonna be a study trip, but being with this girl alone is enough to make me smile :)

Just when i needed to talk to someone, you came online.

Happy teachers' day!

Okay i don't know why got so big space, ignore it okay.


I wasted my day today. I still thought that it will be quite a productive day. But at least, i managed to finish my homework which was one compo and a chemistry paper. I realised i've forgotten everything, gosh. Really have to buck up for prelims, then Os.

Yesterday's teachers' day's celebration was quite okay. It started off with the mass dance, then the games. Used recess time to take photos :) Then teachers' day concert after that. I l i k e t h e v i d e o ! Haha. Zhangmin says : I will see sun lao shi differently from now on. HAHAHA. Aftermath i went to find best for a little while! *points downwards* I have no idea why, but i automatically feel a little happier whenever i see her. :) After school, headed to tampines for long john silvers! Walked around and home after that. Supposed to go visit my uncle in the hospital, but mom said no need to go alr, so didn't go. I really hope he is fine..

Oh yeah, got back amaths paper 1 yesterday. 50/80. I don't know to feel sad or happy. I feel happy because i thought i will fail it. I feel sad because i thought paper 1 was the easier paper. If it's only a just pass, i can predict how i'll do for paper 2. Gosh. Nevermind, i won't dwell on it anymore. But i think mrs see will start to tell stories tomorrow as usual. And perhaps, nag at us for our amaths results. Lol. I hate mrs see now. -.-

Anyway, i won't be blogging that frequently anymore. I'll find time though, because everytime i blog, i feel better. Wahahahaha.

Have been back into the chinese songs craze. As compared to english and korean songs, i think that chinese songs are the most touching ones, the ones that really bring you into the mood. Music's amazing, isn't it? I feel awesome whenever i'm in my little world of my own with my earpiece plugged into my ears. :)

Alright, i'm going to prepare for bed naoz because there's school tomorrow. Noooooo :(