People change, even the person you thought you knew the most, changes. And even though it hurts to see them go; you have to move on, for the memories are all you have, and things might never be the same.

I'll blog tomorrow!

I realized that the people furthest away from me are the closest to my heart and yet the people who are the closest to me are the furthest away from my heart.

Time check : 12.33 am.

1. I slept for 15 hours straight! (Y)

2. I still feel super awake now.

3. I rotted at home today.

4. Tuition was postponed to tomorrow.

5. I finished my gonghan.

6. Got back english compre, 10/25. :( 

7. I'm addicted to tumblr once again.

8. I want to meet all my old friends.

9. I haven't been with JJ these days! JJ, wait for me ok, after Olevels, i will definitely be there for you! ^^

魅力无法挡!

I've been studying almost every night, and it's so tiring! I went for night study on monday, but it kind of failed because i didn't even manage to finish my english compo. Yesterday me sophia and kelly studied at tmart and it was effective! I think it's more effective than night study because i went home to change and felt so much refreshed! Yay, and i'm going for night study tomorrow too to revise literature.

I've been having mood swings recently.. & it's getting on my nerves. I get angry at people so easily nowadays, and i really hate that. I don't know what got into me, and not using tumblr and blogger that recently these days just make me feel worse. 2 more months, and i swear it's the longest 2 months. I've never anticipated anything more than this. Olevels, why must you even come to my life. In the past, when i wake up in the morning, i will be feeling really excited to go to school, to see my friends. Now, when i wake up, i will find an excuse not to wake up, even 2 mins more worth of sleep makes me feel good. I know, this is not anything really great. But i sometimes wonder, what are we living for? Being so tired everyday and not being really happy in the end. The stress is really frustrating some people, and what we hope for everyday is just a little laughter in our lives. I wonder if i can pull through this. I've never felt this tired before. I've been trying to laugh whenever i can, sometimes trying to laugh out the hurt from the bottom of my heart. It sounds silly, isn't it? 

Well, i just hope things go fine. Bye, off to tumblr to make myself feel better.

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Photos from yesterday :

Best's belated birthday present for me. :)

Using best's polaroid. :)

Trying to make our eyes big LOL.

Ending with an epic photo. (Y)

When you love someone, you don’t want to hurt them, even if they deserve to be hurt.

- Ellen Hopkins.

Chinese Olevel : B3, Merit.
Ahhhh, retaking. But there's such a slim chance of me getting an A. :(

Got back social studies and english compo, really happy for both papers. :)

SS - 40/50. ( Highest 41 okkkk! ) ^^
Combined humans ( tgt with geog ) : A1! (OMG FIRST TIME. :D) *flys*
English compo : 21/30. A2. :)

Hopefully, i can pass my english this time round. That will really give me the confidence, like combined humanities. I was about to give up on my humans, and i got motivated all over again when i saw my prep results. :) But another sad thing is, after i studied for prep, i kind of threw all the things i learnt till the back of my mind. It's so hard to do practice papers without referring to notes. Looks like i can't slack for prelim, :( 2 months sound really short, and actually, it's really short when we think back. However, one day in school feels so long. Everyday we are just waiting for the next friday. & now, friday doesn't have its meaning as much as before anymore. Fridays now become another day for us, graduating students to study. But at least, we can catch up with.. the computer! Lol okay i don't know what i'm talking about. Just ignore my crap.

Hmm anyway, met up with best after school today. She's still the best. :) She got me my belated birthday present, which is a jar of sweets and each sweet wrote ' I love you. ' :) Sweeeeeet right! & there was a card too, hehe. Thanks for your present best, i love it! ^^ ( It's red you know! ) We went to 18 chefs to have our lunch first, then we both got our JJ ezlink sticker! Yay :) Tampines one to get things after that, and then we bused to tmart and we practically slacked, took photos, crapped, laughed there. :) & there was this crazy person who looks so normal. She was working at macdonalds. At first she called best ' Hello Jiejie. ' WE WERE SHOCKED. & when i was playing games on my hp she said ' this game very fun hor. ' -.- & the worst thing was she went to grab my phone from the table without asking my permission. What ill manners -.-

We were trying out best's polaroid because we were pretty afraid that we will waste the films because they are so ex! In the end we tried twice, both are so niceeeeeeeeee! :) Yay, we rock. ^^ Okay, that dumb best of mine said that she'll upload the photos at 10 plus. Now it's 11 plus already, she damn pig! So i shall post the photos when she upload it! :)

Kkkkkkk byebye.

You’re going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it’s always their actions you should judge them by. It’s actions, not words, that matter.

- Nicholas Sparks.


I don't know what's wrong with me. 


Prep results are back with satisfying grades. English oral's over. I should be happy. But why does it feel so empty inside me? It just doesn't seem right. Urgh, i hate this stupid feeling, Just hope this feeling go away soon.


Yea, english oral today. I think the topic was quite easy, but i guess i was really defeated by my own nervousness. I stoned at some questions and only brought myself back into the conversation when i forced myself to. It doesn't really feel like a conversation. I even thought i was dreaming. -.- & Oh ya, i had stomach ache. From about 2 plus, and i ended around 4 plus. Was freaking afraid, since this is the last chance for me to push my english grades up, and i have to do the best out of it. I hope the examiners didn't see my nervousness though. :( Honestly speaking, the examiners didn't seem as scary and stern as what the others say. I think they are quite okay.


Hmm i did mention about prep grades right? I'm quite happy with my results this time round.


Maths - A1. 85/100.
Chem - A1. 81/100.
Physics - A2. 71/100.
Combined science - A1. 76/100.
Geography - A1. ( Super proud of this. ) 39/50.
Lit : C5! ( It's rare for me to pass lit! ) 56/100.


But thinking about this, it's only preps. & i haven't got back those killer papers like amaths and english. & another scary thing for us to be stress over. Mother tongue results are going to be out tomorrow. I have the feeling that i will either get a b4 or c5. I've prepared myself for the worst already. Thus i think i wont have any feeling when i see my results tomorrow. Maybe.. just a little disappointed in myself. Hmm, have to retake anyway. 


Good luck to those who are taking oral tomorrow. Do your best, because it's the last chance already. If you're able, make it a memorable one, and don't let yourself have any regrets after that.


I just realised, the posts i'm blogging about nowadays are all exams related. Ahh, i will definitely take revenge after Os end -.-

It’s not the goodbye that hurts, but the flashbacks that follow.

Being sick sucks -.- 

It started with sore throat and flu. Then till yesterday night, i was having a severe headache and i vomitted twice. & my vomit was brown, black. -.- I went to sleep straight away after, and i woke up at around 2 midnight, then slept all the way till 1030am. Feels so awake yet so tired. Slept at 2 plus again till 5, because i was supposed to have tuition at 530. Yeah, supposed. Tutor cheated my feelings once more. :( & now my stomach hurts, don't tell me diarrhoea is coming as well. :(

Now, i'm in a dilemma whether to go to school tomorrow. I want to take my chemistry results, but i don't want to go for lessons, ahhhhh. & it's a long day tomorrow, with night study ending the day. But if i don't go for school tomorrow, i will still go for night study! So yup, how? 

Oral on tuesday, really afraid. I talked a little with mom and sister just now regarding oral. They told me to give my best shot, because it may pull up my english grade. But.. i'm still scared. :( Hiahhhh. It really takes courage. Even english lessons, i'm afraid. Afraid of not being able to fit in, afraid of being called my mdm kamisah, afraid of not being able to do well in english, afraid of disappointing everyone who is watching to see my english grade rise. It may sound silly, but yea, i really don't have the courage now. That sucks. :( 

Alright, i shall not think so much for now. Buck up, Joey. Being brave, that's the first step. 

Anyway, i miss best ttm. I really can't wait to meet her up. :(

You must learn to take the good with the bad, the happy with the sad, love what you’ve got and remember what you had. Learn to forgive, but never forget, learn from your mistakes but never regret. People change and things go wrong, but you just have to remember that life goes on.

(via never-inwonderland)

Childhood friend.

Once again, I'm a happykid. I hope this time round, this lasts, at least for a period of time.

Sophia's house after school, was supposed to practice oral for next week's Olevel oral. But we only practiced for a little while and spent the remaining time taking photos with webcam & watching kpop videos. Time past pretty fast, and me and yvonne kind of explored her house a little. :)

Rushed home and prepared because i was meeting nicole for dinner @ 6pm! I'm so so so so so so happy to meet her. :) When i saw her, words naturally came from my mouth, without me having to think of what i should say, what i shouldn't say. & when i missed out some things, she'll add them in for me. 10 years of friendship, she still knows me the best despite us not having many heart to heart talks and we haven't met up for so long. I love you nicole! Don't be so sad over them anymore, so not worth it, and thank you for trusting me, i feel so honoured HAHAHAHA. :) Meet up again soon okkkkkkkk! ^^

Both of us went for dinner and we sat down to talk for about 2 hours. Awesome. Been long since i felt so comfortable, yayness. :) Bought bubble tea and walked home together after that, yay! ( Because she lives only 2 blocks away from me. )

There's english oral on tuesday. Honestly speaking, i'm really afraid. Actually i was quite confident of my oral from sec 1 to sec 3. Until this year, mdm kamisah took my oral for mye and i got a really low grade, and my confidence level started to drop. Ahhhh. I don't have the points, i don't sound confident, i don't look lively. I think i'm just going to fail my O level english.

Anw, will post after i've gotten pictures from nicole. :)

哭不出的痛

Went to support fiona @ block 234 on tuesday. Fiona, i ran because of you ley! I didn't even run that fast during napfa. Honoured? :) Hehe, enjoyed myself, and thanks fiona for the kfc treat! :)

Oh ya, i'm extremely happy with my geog results! Though it's not really a very very high mark, i sacrificed my birthday and studied geog till 12am despite me being so tired! & i didn't regret for studying that night, because it's my first time i felt some hope for my humanities, the first time getting an A1 for geog! & the feeling is just so awesome. :) Hmm, but thinking about it, miss poh said that this is the last time we are gonna get marks that are so high. Hopefully, i'll do ok for prelim, and then the Os. But the sad thing is, it's combined humanities! My healthcare for social studies are gonna pull my grades down down down. :( Ok i shall not think that much for now, SO HAPPY HAHAHAHA. :)

Lunch with yvonne @ tmart after school, had a really nice talk. Thank you yvonne. :)

Ooops, i nearly forgotten about the mcq paper today. I think i had a lot a lot a lot of careless mistakes. -.- Many wrong answers due to not reading the questions properly. I think i won't be getting an A for science this time round, because chem and physics papers kind of suck too. Ahh. I seem to be unable to balance my subjects well. Gawd.

Got back emaths papers too, results were pretty satisfying, got an A1, yay. :) All the quite okay papers are back already, the hell ones are still left at the back. Omg, i don't want to get back my amaths & lit. That 2 can kill -.- I should really start studying, doing more amaths papers, my amaths results are like dropping and dropping. :(

Other photos taken on tuesday :

Can't wait for dinner tomorrow with nicole! *points below*

HAPPY 45TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE, I LOVE YOUUUUUUUU! ^^

Ohmy, i was so bored and was finding things to do, and i totally forgot about blogger. Oops. Okay, here i am.

I'm so high now HAHAHAHA. & together with sofia on msn, i think we are crazy already! Sofia! *gives the SIF look* ^^ Meeting them tomorrow, yayness. I can't wait!

Ok here's something for dear fiona!

Darl, all the way tomorrow ok! Me, yours truly, and the rest will be there to support you ok! ^^ *inserts hearts*

ASTONS WITH SOPHIA TOMORROW TOO, HUAHUAHUA. <3

I'm loving it! ^^

Don't ever try, SIF. Whatever it is, i will still smile. :)

I wasted my whole day away, except for the part that i had tuition. I woke up at 10, unexpectedly. I went to bed @ 2 last night, so i thought i will at least sleep until 12, the usual time. I guess i slept too much the day before, 16 hours! That was my record. LOL. & then i wasted my time by slacking, watching tv, doing random things until 2, and then i decided to study for physics. With books and my handphone placed in front of me, i obviously chose my handphone. Took random pictures, listened to random songs, logged on to random websites, talked to random people on facebook. WITH MY BOOKS IN FRONT OF ME. Alamak, i just don't have the motivation.

Tuition at 630 today, it was supposed to be @ 5. Tutor was a little crazy, he talked and laughed to himself. I tried so hard not to get distracted by him -.- This isn't what a tutor sound like, is it? 

Hmmmm. 5 more minutes to national day. I think i'm gonna rot the whole day tomorrow too. Looking forward to tuesday! :)

Throughout the 4 years of my secondary school life, it wasn't a really smooth journey. There were unhappiness, quarrels, teasing, rumours, and everything. But i realise, nothing is more important than having true and great friends around you. I've found mine, what about you? :) Whatever happens, they have been standing by me, supporting me and encouraging me. Although they don't really say anything sometimes, i know that they will always catch me when i fall, no matter how heavy i am. (^^) & i really love them. Thanks for making my 16th birthday a memorable one, darlings. Although it was a belated celebration, i still enjoyed myself very much! *inserts hearts*

I'll let the photos do the talking. :)

Thanks for the present too darlings. *points below*

They gave me a heart-shaped box with a total of 54 photos inside, and with words from their bottom of their hearts. The memories will always be kept in my heart. Thank you love. :)

& thank you yvonne zhangmin & kelly who came and celebrate my birthday too! :)


More photos @ facebook. :)

Finally, a break from exams, though they continue next week.

Have been studying these few nights, and i'm feeling super tired.

Really, it's not an easy job. Today's amaths was the worst amaths paper i ever took. 

I only wish for Os to be over now.

Hmm ok, on a lighter note, I'm already 16! Haha. I haven't really had the chance to thank every one of you, so here it goes!

Thank you sofia sophia fiona kelly yvonne manfred darrell & chewei for the JJ's album :) 

Thank you sofia for your awesome scroll, i love it! :)

Thank you yushan & sebrina for your packet of food, they are my companions while studying! :)

Thank you krismine for the notebook with one of our picture inside, the card, & the pencil! :)

Thank you munmun & co for the piggy bank. :)

Thank you lixuan & sophia for the card! :)

Thank you 4/7 for the handshakes & wishes. :)

Thank you to every single one of you that wished me on facebook. ( I was so elated when i saw 92 notifications. :D )

Thank you to those who texted me, & sorry to those that i don't recognize your number! Because my phone was down, so i lost all my contacts. Haha.

Thank you to those who wished me at 12 too. ( Sorry that i only replied to your texts in the morning because i was sleeping. :x )

Sofia was the first to wish me this year! :)

Shermaine's plan failed, HAHA. She pretended that she doesn't know it's my birthday and wanted to text me at 1159! But i only received it at 1201. Haha, fail! :) 

Clique got tricked too. They wanted to sing ' happy birthday ' song to me when i was walking along the corridor, and they didn't realise i walked the other way and they were singing to the air. HAHAHAHA. 

LOL okay i feel bad. But still, thank you so much, you people are just so lovely. :)

Although i spent my birthday with my books, studying geography, memorising notes, i felt really loved on that day.

Especially my family, love them to bits. <3

Update more tomorrow. :)